The Twin Cities Rainbow Chaser

moving across the country…to discover what God has in store

Dreading the Change

Before the week is out, I will no longer be a Twin Cities Rainbow Chaser.  The time has come for me to pack up my bedroom and head south…

to sweet tea

to boys who hold doors open

to higher education

to God’s will for my life

I have to focus on the good things that are waiting for me in Tennessee.  If I consider the less savory things like the humidity, heavy foods, and disrespect for cyclists, my heart will only hurt more.  You see, for the first time in my life, I want to stay.  I’ve always been a go-er.  I never got stickers for resting well during nap time in kindergarten…I wiggled too much.  And I’ve always envied people who have moved around a lot during their lives.  Well here I am, moving after spending only one year a place…and my heart is breaking.

This is a testament to God’s work in my life.  He has revealed to me an ability to love and connect with people that I didn’t know hid in my heart.  Over the past few weeks, my emotions have run the gamut.

Excited!  Excited!  Excited!

Nervous…need a place to live…uhoh…

ANGER—What the hell, God?  This is the worst idea ever.

Me…angry?  Nu uh…oh wait.  What the hell, God?!?  I’m happy here!

Hmmmm….peace…peace…ohmmmm

*tears* nooooooo!

Yeah, that about sums it up.  During a time sitting down by the river, I realized that I was really angry at God.  For the first time in my life I feel like I am in a really good place, and He wants me to leave all of that behind.  It didn’t make sense to me.  And it still doesn’t make sense to me, but I have come to a place where I accept that God has a bigger plan.  He calls us to be faithful during these times of trial and uncertainty…that’s how He is able to prove His greatness to us.

photo-6

Does that mean that I am packing up and heading out tear-free, heart fully mended?  No.  I have come to love my house church family, my neighborhood coffee shop, the little boy that I tutor, my climbing gym, easy access to bike trails…this city has so much going for it.  But I am comforted by the knowledge that God has something going on for me about 850 miles away.  I have no idea what it is…and it’s a little exciting to think about it.

*brightening* Nashville has a good music scene…right?

Making new friends means finding new coffee shops

I get to see how God is working in other places!

(Also…the name of the blog will have to change…time to start thinking)

Advertisements
Leave a comment »

As the Rain Slows Down

Do you know what happens when the sun begins to shine while rain continues to fall?  That is (supposedly) when you should be able to see a rainbow.  I have heard that there the bow of colors is created by a complex scientific process…but I can’t swear by that.

I can swear by, however, that God is good (that’s not sacrilege is it??)  If you have read this blog recently, then you know that I have been searching for God’s will for an eternity (slight exaggeration).  My heart has always known that He would come through but I will admit that my head sometimes doubted.  The rain would fall without fading, without relief…and nothing would happen!  I couldn’t move forward or backwards.  The rain made life difficult, slippery.

My Camping & Climbing Trip

I went camping a couple of weeks ago.  The purpose of the camping trip was to track down rocks to climb.  Unfortunately, it rained one evening.  My friend and I were stuck in our tent for an extended period of time!  And then, we were hesitant to climb because we knew that the rocks would be dangerously slippery!  We had nothing to do besides read…and sleep…and stare at each other.  How’s that for a camping trip?

Ah, but that was not the end of the trip, nor was it the majority of the trip!  The time we spent in the tent gave us the opportunity to relax and refresh.  We had been going hard for several days and probably would not have taken this time off had it not been for the rain.  After the abuse of climbing, our bodies definitely needed some time off!  And when the rain stopped…life was different.  The world was different.  Everything looked and smelled fresh!  Do you know the smell of rain?  Go camping in the rain!  You shall not know the true smell of rain until you smell it out in the middle of the woods (with wildfires raging all around–we were near Laramie, WY).

After the rain

And that is exactly why God sends us through storms!  When our life is overwhelmed by storms, we can spend time fighting them…or we can take that as a sign that we should allow God to restore us.  We can also be reassured that God will bring us through the storm and eventually a rainbow shall appear in your life.

What’s my rainbow?  I have a job…basically.  Sometime in the next few weeks I will be moving to Minnesota to spend a year serving with the Minnesota Reading Corps.  There’s a lot that has to get done before that happens (specifically–finding a place to live!), but I know that the Lord will provide.  He always has…and He always will.

Leave a comment »

A “Welcome Summer” Rain

I looked for a rainbow today, literally.  After I sat around doing mostly nothing after church this morning, I finally decided (at 6:30 pm) that I should return a RedBox movie that I rented last night (One for the Money–not Katherine Heigl’s greatest work).  Instead of hopping in my car and driving two blocks to a gas station, I decided to walk.  The only problem with this decision was the sound of nearing thunder and the scent of impending rain.  Despite these warning signs, I grabbed an umbrella and headed out.

I never had to open the umbrella, despite the drops that had begun to fall by the time I had the disc returned and had turned homeward.  It was a light, cool rain that marred my shirt and the road.  It had the scent of spring, despite the 80+ degree weather that we have had for the past month.  Although the sun was not shining brightly, I decided to glance around on the off chance that a rainbow decided to make an appearance.  Sadly, there was no rainbow to be found.

On the plus side, God spurred me forward in my chase during church this morning.  The sermon was on praying, something that, despite my strongest protestations, I struggle to do.  I could walk upstairs and get my notes, making this post much more reliable…instead, I am going to opt to dig into my brain and give you the pieces that have remained fast in there.

One of the greatest things that my pastor said was that prayer is a privilege.  How honored are we that the Ruler, Creator, Master of the universe would choose to converse with us?  I am merely a jobless, future-less, plan-less college alum who is about to move back in with my parents.  And yet, God makes a point to reach out and touch me in more ways than I can even say.  He gives me the quiet, “welcome summer” rain.  He has given me a few close friends who do not mock my lost-ness.  He has surrounded me with people who say they will pray for me and encourage me to keep pursuing his will.

Ahh–His will.  This is something else that is in my mind from this morning’s sermon.  People talk about pursuing God’s will…yeah, just like I did.  But as long as we are living as He has called, then we are already in His will!  It is not some wild goose chase; instead, it is something that we do on a day to day basis.  Therefore, I must put aside my concerns.

I do not have to search for His Will.  He has it and that is sufficient.

Leave a comment »