The Twin Cities Rainbow Chaser

moving across the country…to discover what God has in store

5. Tuesday: Reading

So, who fails at blogging?  Yes, that would be me.  Who is the queen of starting things and not finishing them?  Yes, me again.  So, here is to finishing up what I started…for once in my life.

On Tuesday morning, I kind-of slept in.  Then, I got up and made breakfast.  But, I did not just make any breakfast.  I made THE breakfast.  What is that?

It is only an awesome stack of blueberry pancakes topped with powdered sugar and more blueberry goodness, accompanied by a cup of freshly ground French Roast coffee.  Yes.  Perfectly fabulous…I know.  Doesn’t it look delightful?  The picture does not do it justice–I promise.  Okay, so that was just awesome and you can see “What is Love?” in the corner of the picture there.  I delved in.  Then, I got dressed…woot.  And, I went to a coffee shop just a couple of blocks away.  It’s on this street, we’ll just call it “C Street”.  C Street is well known for its homeless population and overall “sketchiness”.  But, there’s some really great stuff up there.  I went in search of a fabulous cup of coffee…yes, I found it.  I got my coffee and, due to the business of the place (it was around lunchtime), I sat outside.  I thoroughly enjoyed my hazelnut caffe au lait and learning about love…what love truly is in the world today.  Loved it.  Then I wandered around C Street for a bit.  I visited some of the fabulous antique shops and meandered around.  Then, I met a guy…who proved himself worthy of C Street.  He kind-of creeped me out.  Oh well.  I had been reading.  I had been drinking coffee . I was in a beautiful mood.  So, then what?

I went home ate lunch…leftovers or something insignificant.  Then, I went to Barnes & Noble (ugh…I should be shamed for going there, I know).  I had a reason–read a Praxis II book.  I have to take the Praxis II in less than one month.  It will determine my future…not really, but it’s a pretty big deal and I haven’t studied and I have less than a month and if I don’t pass I will cry and go get drunk and maybe do something else really stupid…okay, that was a little too intense.

So, I sat in Barnes & Noble and read the Praxis study guide for about an hour.  And, I came home to make DINNER.  It was a stupendous dinner…it rivaled the blueberry pancakes.

It was spaghetti…completely improvised, made up form scratch SPAGHETTI.  Well, I started with some left over “from scratch” pizza sauce…and went from there.  Some bell peppers and onions, oregano, “Italian spices”, sugar, tomato paste…oh yeah, and a hint of red wine.  I was impressed with my improvisational fortitude.  And so I ate my spaghetti.  I read some more.  And, I was content and at peace with the world.

Then, Wednesday came.  I had to clean my house and do laundry and boring stuff like that…and go to work.  Ultimately, once Wednesday hit, and I was over that five day “finding time” kick, I lost sight of everything that I was trying to learn as I searched for time.  This is pretty obvious when I realize it’s been almost a week since that day…and I’m just now writing about it.

Sadly, things are just going to get harder.  I start classes on Tuesday…ugh.  Not only do I have a full load, I’m working…two jobs.  I have my “normal” part-time job and then I’m also a copy editor for the university paper (I applied on a whim last year).  Where will my time be?  I have no way of knowing…but I do know that I need to set aside time to be intimate with God…to look at the stars and know how all-powerful and all-knowing and ever-present He is…that is what will get me through.

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Employment

I have found employment, after looking since April.  And, the application that resulted in this current position…yes, it was submitted in April.  On the 25th to be exact and I was hired on June 30th.  Yeah.

So, this job.  I am working at a group home where eight ladies with developmental disabilities dwell.  I cook meals.  I clean.  I give showers.  I wipe tushies.  Yep.  True story…every day that I go to work I wipe at least one tushie and change at least one adult diaper.  It happens (I was just incredibly tempted to make an inappropriate comment).  The job itself isn’t so bad.  I randomly have down time when there’s no laundry to fold, no meal to prepare, and no one who needs changing.  And the ladies who live there aren’t difficult to deal with…as a general rule.

But…as always, there’s a “but” (either grammatically or, well, to wipe)…my coworkers are frustrating.  They’re always in a tiff with someone else, talking about someone else behind their back, nit-picking…grr.  So, what did I do?  I decided that I needed something new on my mirror.  I started looking at a verse about doing everything for God’s glory…which I truly need to think about.  But, I moved on towards focusing on love and such…here’s what I found:

Therefore, we do not lose heart.  Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.  For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.  So we fix our eyes not on what is seen but what is unseen.  For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

2 Corinthians 4:16-18

When I was in high school, I tried this thing for a while where I memorized Bible verses…or, chunks at a time, I guess.  I memorized these verses as part of one of those chunks.  So, when I came across these verses in my randomized searches, I grabbed ahold of them.  Like I said last time though, my mirror is kind-of small and I like to write big.  Obviously, this chunk won’t fit.  My “mirror words” are going to be: “Inwardly we are being renewed day by day.”  I like it, don’t you?

Once I started working, my life got CRAZY.  I’m taking classes–which takes time to go to class and a ton of time to do homework.  Plus, while I started working I was also starting a ton of training classes.  Last week, I worked 38 hours and was in training for 10…or something outrageous like that.  Oh, and I still have to manage to keep my home looking decent, food in my fridge (that’s actually getting a little low now), and my body in decent shape (that’s a total fail–I went and got ice cream tonight).

So, after this past week, I was wiped out.  I really wanted a day to zone out, time to find inner peace and quiet.  That was supposed to be today…but I ended up working…at 6 am.  But, ya know what?  I decided that the 6 am shift is my favorite.  And, then I found this verse.  I don’t need to sleep in late to find renewal.  True renewal comes from somewhere beyond my power.  Renewal comes from God.

Let me be renewed as deeply as the sun sets around the earth.

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